Her Public Diary

Sibrina turned 12 years old this year! She changed my life, I mean she changed everything about me. She made me stronger, she made me smarter, she gave me confidence and she provided love from someone I had never felt before. This year she turned 12 years old and I can’t be more happier with the young lady she’s turning into. She is smart in her own way and Just Gorgeous ! I think she is the prettiest little girl I have ever seen (but don’t we all think that about our children). Sibrina does ballet full time and drives me crazy about getting them pointe shoes. She has convinced Graison that she is his best friend and I have to say to myself she is the sweetest little girl you will ever meet. I’m hard on her though…. I think it’s because I know how hard it is sometimes to be a black girl/ woman. I mean I want her to have the best and be the best. I want her to always choose to do the right thing and I want her to believe that she can be who she wants to be at no cost of selling who s...

So the other day I was trying to figure out what I was going to do to my hair and decided on getting some braids. Backstory - I have always and I mean always wore my hair short. If I had hair it was only for a minute and then I would go back into cutting my hair off again. I like my hair short and shaved as low as possible in the back. Then here comes my husband out of nowhere (probably looking at them weaves online) says why don’t you let your hair grow out (rolling my eyes) thinking to myself like you have to be kidding me I’m now grey and the middle of my hair thinning but I reluctantly say okay and now I’m walking around looking a hot mess! I decided to get some braids…. I don’t know why… I get braids and I immediately think it's too much hair for me. She put so much hair on my head. The braids are cute, she braided them perfectly and they are flat. The girl knows what she is doing, it’s just too much on my head. The point…. I was standing in the mirror looking at myself and sa...

This position came open at work and I really I mean really wanted it! I exceedingly meet all of the criteria for the position. I had years of experience in the field along with years of experience in management. I thought to myself I would be so perfect for this job….. this job is for me! I just know it is! So I got my resume and cover letter together to send over to the company with High Hopes of getting a call. You think I ever got a call??? Nope, no call…. so about a week later I mentioned it to someone that I applied for the position and the first thing they said to me was, you don’t want that job. Then they said they wanted a bigger pool of people before they started calling people in for interviews. As the conversation went on I realized that the conversation was for me to understand that even if you were the best of the best you wouldn’t be chosen because they are not looking for someone like you.. The person that I’m speaking with I admire, they are selfless, hardworking, and ...

Every time I turn around someone is asking me what’s my New Year Resolutions? Or asking what are my goals for the New Year? First, I want to know why are you evening asking me... to change your goals or to compare your goals to mine…… I mean I don’t think that about everyone. But, you know how everyone wants to be a motivational speaker and think that because you say you’re not motivated that you will get motivated after they give you their speech (maybe I’m the only person thinking this...lol). I feel like the New Year Resolution is the same thing, let me help you set goals and hold you accountable for your goals, and yet the person holding you accountable not accomplishing anything in their life. You got to be able to recognize these people because they are not Les Brown! Let’s move on though - I haven’t set a New Year Resolution. I started to think like, Simantha what do you want out of the year. It’s hard to say what I want out of the year because every day I start to think I want ...

Soooooo…… yesterday I had a complete breakdown. I don’t know what really happen or if I can even identify what’s going on with me. Oh no wait, I can’t really say I don’t know what’s going on. I was aware that some type of anxiety was coming and I didn’t want to identify it with stress but I knew it was something. I mean what is anxiety? An underlying feeling? I mean I’m worried about a few things with the New Year coming, annoyed with being apart of something and everyone not giving their 100 percent and just simply maintaining. Now, what happen yesterday - I was riding down the street on the phone with one of my really good friends and got annoyed with another really good friend. Now first off the problem is that I’m writing this post and nobody knows but they will be able to identify themselves if they ever find this blog or read this post - funny but not funny. I ended up getting so upset on the phone and I literally just took off on my friend and was speeding. And before you know i...

So, I was on Facebook a few days ago and saw this video of a man yelling that this woman left her baby in the car asleep. I think it was at Walmart where she was parked and left her son in the car asleep. Now before you judge her let me tell you my story........ Here we go.... So my daughter decided she wanted to be a dancer and wanted to start taking ballet lessons. She turned out to be really good, I must say, and the first year in ballet she got the opportunity to be a GingerBread Girl in her first Nutcracker. Now the rules for dropping them off and picking them up are that the parent must come in and sign them in and out. Which, don't get me wrong it's understandable. Now if you read my last post you'll know how many children I have and the baby was one year old at this time. We went in and watched The Nutcracker for the second time, the boys were misbehaving, Nikolas didn't want to sit still, and the baby would not stop crying at this point. Finally, Graison fell a...